Wednesday, March 21, 2012

100 facts you probably didn't know about me

-- ofcourse unless you're one of my best friends then you probably do!

1. I am a test tube baby, meaning I was created by a doctor and then put inside my mom's stomach, me and tyler were 2 of 7 fertilized eggs, the rest died.
2. I am lactose intolerant, have been since I was a baby. yet I still eat ice cream, had it tonight actually
3. I have three dogs, but I favor gizmo because he is the cutest thing ever
4. my brother tripped me in second grade, I hit my head on the corner of the fireplace and got ten stitches in my forehead, I have the scar to prove it
5. I was born in Duluth, moved to Woodbury when I was 5, and to Apple Valley when I was 8
6. I am allergic to grass
7. I am 25% Puerto Rican
8. My favorite color is lime green
9. I am afraid of heights and the dark
10. I just stopped sleeping with my baby blankets last year
11. My eyes change colors throughout the year, usually switching from green to brown
12. I have had the same best friend since third grade, Rachel Nault....I like her sometimes <3
13. I have the biggest crush on Vin Diesel, don't ask why
14. I got the award "most likely to be texting" my senior year, embarrassing
15. If I didn't go to school at St. Thomas I was going to go to Robert Morris in Chicago
16. I almost quit playing soccer at St. Thomas after a day and a half of tryouts
17. I am obsessed with Nicki Minaj and Lil Wayne
18. I clench my jaw when I sleep
19. I have never sneezed more than two times consecutively
20. I would rather have guy friends than girl friends
21. I have a really hard time lying to people
22. I am not afraid to share things with people, sometimes I share too much
23. People often mistake my love of conversation through texting with me liking them
24. I can't cook for shit
25. I cut people out of my life that have hurt my feelings
26. I liked the same guy for 4 years in high school even though we hardly had anything in common
27. I love helping people
28. I was really good at guitar hero
29. my ipod consists of rap, pop, techno, spanish music and celine dion
30. a lot of people come to me for advice or my opinion
31. I hardly ever judge anyone, unless I am given a solid reason too
32. I have cheated on a boyfriend
33. I try to refrain from talking shit about others
34. my favorite foods are pizza, chicken fingers and spaghetti
35. I work at Gilly Hicks at the Mall of America
36. I really lack common sense
37. My dad and I didn't get along well until after I left for college
38. I am a perfectionist when it comes to school, I need to get all a's
39. I was in the musical "Joseph and the Amazing Technicolor Dreamcoat" when I was younger, with Maddy Mchugh and my brother lol
40. I tell my mom almost everything
41. I used to play volleyball when I was younger, and I was actually pretty good
42. I get attached to people really easily
43. If you don't like my dogs, I probably don't like you
44. Even if I could live in any place in the world, I would probably stay in Apple Valley
45. The biggest deal breaker for me is personality
46. I wanted to go to ASU from 5th grade but my mom wouldn't let me go there, or even apply
47. once I like someone it usually takes me a really long time to get over them
48. I like change
49. If i send you pictures of my dogs, you're one of my best friends
50. I love cuddling
51. I love my friends so much, they mean the world to me
52. I will be living in an apartment in St. Paul for a year starting in August
53. I am obsessed with Lifetime Movie Network
54. I absolutely hate people who lie, but that doesn't mean I wont be friends with people because of it
55. I have a crush on three people right now
56. I have a stalker from Mexico who chats me all the time on facebook
57. If a guy can make me laugh, there is a way bigger chance I will fall for him
58. I want three kids when I am older
59. I love being right
60. I am currently addicted to watching prison break
61. I don't think age matters when it comes to relationships
62. One time my mom grounded me a day for every minute i was late, 31 minutes.....
63. In 8th grade I got my hand slammed in a locker and it broke my finger
64. I am getting a tattoo on my foot in probably two weeks
65. My work sandals give me blisters on my feet
66. My dad grounded me the first time he saw a thong in my laundry
67. I got frost bite from an ice pack
68. Throughout high school my parents never let me sleepover at other people's houses
69. I want my boyfriends to be my best friends
70. I love getting to know people, not meeting people but actually getting to know every little thing about them
71. i use the same password for everything
72. I can easily entertain myself, I don't mind being alone
73. I do squats when I'm in the shower
74. I think a lot of dads are hot
75. If it is a possibility I like to stay friends with my ex's
76. My face breaks out if someone touches it with scented lotion on their hands
77. when I don't have anything to say in a texting conversation i either say hot :) or lol
78. I know a lot of random facts from my dad
79. I had headgear when I was younger
80. I have an obsession with exercising
81. I only like country music when it's nice outside
82. I just started calling people this year
83. I am afraid of being hurt
84. I get hungry probably every thirty minutes
85. Arby's is my favorite fast food restaurant
86. I like to make people laugh
87. I don't like people who brag about sex or drinking on twitter
88. I try to positively impact as many people's lives as I can
89. I can be very manipulative without you even knowing
90. I laugh at my own jokes often
91. I love arguing, especially when I win
92. I am very very sarcastic
93. I am very wise, and perceptive
94. I call people out when I find it necessary
95. Sometimes I plan conversations in advance so I know what to say
96. My dad blocks people's numbers to my phone if he doesn't want me talking to them
97. I value people's opinions but I wont let their opinions hurt me
98. One time I got pulled over and three people in my car got minors...ooops
99. I love all my friends and family so so much
100. I am on spring break and am bored as fuck



if you read this...youre a champ and I'm guessing you're bored as fuck too, soooo call me maybe <3

Tuesday, February 21, 2012

Now you're just somebody that I used to know...

isn't funny how much things change when you go to college? I remember sitting in study hall 4th quarter talking with friends about college and we all agreed that nothing would change, we would still be friends with the same people. We said that college WOULDNT change us, no matter what was pushed in our face, exposed to us. We actually thought that we would be the same people. I thought that things would always be the same, I said, it wont matter we will all come home on breaks and be friends again! Yeah that only works so far, you dont see your friends everyday anymore, you don't get to hear what is going on in their lives, unless you find the time in your busy schedule to keep conversations up with your pals. I dont care what anybody says, "Oh im exactly the same" noooo college has changed all of us. What about those people taht you used to see during passing time, the people that you didnt talk to outside of school, you wouldnt have their number to text them, those are the people that I miss most when I'm at college. The people that you took for granted, you just assumed that they would always be around. ANd now that they aren't at school with you you finally realize that they actually meant something to you. Or how about your relationship status, you said you wouldn't have a boyfriend/girlfriend you wanted to be single for freshmen year, you didnt want to be held back from meeting new people. I guarantee you sat in bed at night and thought about how it would be if you had someone, maybe you even sat there thinking about your ex, wondering what they were doing at that very moment. Thinking hmmm maybe we should get back together? I dont doubt that having the absence of people in your life today has made you strengthen relationships with those that you want to keep close, but it has also brought back feelings to people that you probably didnt want to have feelings for anymore. There is so much more time with your own thoughts, college has really helped me to realize what I want to do in my life, I have figured out the important things in my life, the people, my priorities and such. But i do find myself thinking about all my high school friends and thinking about what they are doing. Like hmmm I wonder what Rachel and Stephanie are doing right now? (still jealous that my besties are roomies) or I imagine what Oshari is doing, obviously on booty patrol where ever he is. I wonder if Tharp found herself a new lunch table to sit at after all of us seniors left ;) and sometimes I question if Jack Yak is actually serious about all the Rim job tweets he posts.... and then I wonder if people think the same as me, am I the only one that sits and thinks about things like this? Am i thinking about this stupid shit while everyone is partying?

This recent NDSU girls thing has had me thinking about my friends and what I would do if one of them died. And so I want to take the time to say how glad I am to have the people in my life that I do, I am truly blessed to have such an amazing friend group. All my best girl friends, you know I love you guys and i cant wait to see you all again soon :) and my guy friends too, you guys mean the world to me! People I have met at St Thomas, youre pretty cool too :p I dont ever want to be in a situation where I am wishing i would have told somebody that I appreciated them more, so this is why I'm doing it here! And for all the people that I have drifted from since I have been at college I hope that one day we can come back together and be as strong of friends as we were.

This post goes out to somebody that I no longer talk to, a previous boyfriend. Even though we don't talk anymore, mainly because I deleted you on facebook, twitter and took your number out of my phone (lol) but I just want you to know that you will forever have a place in my heart, even though we probably wont speak again. You probably wont read this, but atleast its been said.

song of the day- Somebody that I used to know- Gotye <---- it's actually good, listen to it sluts.

-TAYLOR

Thursday, February 16, 2012

Hey I heard you liked the wild ones.

I dont know if its weird that I haven't REALLY liked anybody in over a year. Not anything more than crush on someone. I mean besides Jack Yak who is my one and only true love. To all the people I have been with in that time don't take this the wrong way if you're reading this right now, the time we had together was great, and I think we all know it wasn't a long term kinda thing lol. But this doesn't have anything to do with who I like, its the fact that past relationships have made me not want to expose myself to anybody else. After my last break up I told myself that there was no way that I would let anybody else hurt me, I had had enough of that. But now I have met someone that I think I could change my mind for. But at night I find myself analyzing every little thing, every text, every conversation trying to find the little thing that would prove that he is just like the rest of the guys. I think its sad that I spend so much time thinking about what is going to happen before it even happens! I wonder if he is just going to randomly break up with me like my last relationship. I already assume a bad outcome without even giving it a try. I don't want to be hurt ever again, and that is probably inevitable. But if I had it my way I would be alone as long as possible until I know for sure that the guy I was talking to would stay with me forever. Not saying that I am looking for a long term relationship because I don't even know what I want right now to be honest.

I think its funny that when I get a call right before I'm supposed to hangout with this guy I automatically assume he is going to cancel on plans, because I am so used to it. Also when he holds the door for me, or gives me his jacket when I say I'm cold, I think its a joke ..like wait..people actually do this still? Not saying that he will be different from the people I have dated in the past, and Im also not saying that they were all bad boyfriends. My last relationship was definitely the best out of all of them, and thats why me and him are still friends to this day. And going off of that just because we are friends does not mean I'm not over him, it does not mean I want to date him, guys and girls can still be just friends these days! Back to the point, the relationships that we have truly do affect our future relationships. Even if you are sitting there thinking "nope, not me. I'm still exactly the same" , you are in denial my friend. What I am telling you, as I am also learning and trying myself, we have to keep an open mind. We can't assume that this new person will be like the last, even as hard as that is. Lets say this new person does something you didnt like that a previous bf/gf did, don't just write them off because you think "oh been there done that" You may not know what you are missing out on. Everyone deserves a chance. And yes it sucks getting broken up with, it sucks putting your heart out there and having that person crush you. I mean shiiiiiiit, it REALLY sucks actually genuinely liking someone, having them break up with you and then start dating a new person two weeks later, but trust me you can get over it, if this was on twitter I would say #subtweet. I say its better to have love and lost than to have never loved at all and thats the way I will continue to live my life. I can't help that I'm a lover, I will give every relationship everything i have because I would want that same mentality from the people I date. Every relationship that you have gives you more experience for someone who comes along in the future. Forget the past, theres someone better out there for ya. You just gotta find em.

- Taylor

Sunday, January 29, 2012

college

Arriving back at college has helped me realize that I need to act in an appropriate manner as I did last semester. It reminded me that I do not act the same way here that I do at home, it also reminded me of the fact that I need to be aware of first impressions as I will be meeting new people in my classes tomorrow. Thinking further on that I don't understand why I am afraid to show people my true personality here, when at home I don't care what anyone thinks and I show my true self to anyone that I encounter. Maybe I am afraid of the reputation that I will get here, because we all know that I didn't have the best reputation in high school. I believe that I am more cautious of my actions here because I want people to respect who I am and I want them to like me. But who says they wouldn't like my true personality? Why am I so afraid to be myself? What other people think shouldn't affect the way I act. I live for myself only, yet i still find myself wondering how others with think of me after they meet me. And this also limits me from wanting to make friends because I have come to the conclusion that nobody I have met thus far is like me, or my friends back home. Am I not looking hard enough? Maybe I'm just not giving people the chance or the time.

Is it good to be cautious and to think things through like this, or am I weird? Along with the idea of making a great first impression I told myself that I would make new friends this semester. I love my friends at home and they mean the world to me, yet I realized that I didn't really take the time to get to know many people outside of the soccer team because I knew I had great friends to go home to. But now, here I am at school realizing that my great friends aren't here with me anymore and now I am with a bunch of people that I barely got to know or I met once at a party. I wonder sometimes if I should have talked more in class, should I have made the effort to become better friends with the really nice girl in my english class? I wonder sometimes on what I missed out on for not getting to know more people. I am a person that is interested in getting to know every aspect of a person, I am so curious that I just want to get to know every little thing about someone. People interest me so much that I just always want to know more. I could have deep conversations with people for hours just talking about life actually probably any subject. I sometimes wonder if there are any other people out there like that, and if there are why aren't they talking to me? I wish sometimes that there was an invisible magnet that would draw us to the people that we are alike, and it would make friendship creating so much easier. If there was a way that we could look into a crowd and detect who we would get along with, it would be absolutely perfect. But instead we need to get to know people and take the time to learn about everyone.

If you know me well enough you know that i accidently slip and tell everything that is in my head, I don't really have a filter it just kinda comes out. And now being back at college I don't know if that is acceptable. WIll people think I'm a bitch when I share my opinion? WIll they think I'm stupid when I ask a question in class? The biggest thing is that people don't understand my sense of humor here, why don't people understand sarcasm, have you not experienced it in your life? I mean cmon you had to have had someone that is sarcastic...why don't you understand that I am joking?! Its not funny after I have to explain it three times and you still sit there like uhhhh I don't get it.

I guess my main point in all this is that you never know how people are going to perceive you, you never know what they are going to think or say after they meet you, so why do we sit and think about it? OR maybe I am the only one...so why do I sit any wonder about it? Why do I care what others think and why am I afraid to show who I truly am, is it a fear of being rejected? If everyone showed who we truly are wouldnt it be easier to choose who we like and dont like? Rather than having to find out than someone pretends to be something they're not, and wait...am I pretending to be something I'm not because I am not acting the same here as I do at home? Sunday nights provoke questions, questions that I just can't seem to ever answer.

-Taylor

Friday, January 27, 2012

Extremely Loud & Incredibly Close

First of all, you should all go see this movie, by far one of the best that I have seen in a long time! So touching and inspirational, even made me cry a little bit at a few parts! If you haven't seen a preview for this movie it is about a family that loses their dad/husband in the 9/11 attack and the boy is in search of finding the lock to a key that he found in his dad's closet. This movie shows the grieving of the family as they are getting over the loss of a family member, at the same time it portrays the little boys determination and his ability to get over his own personal fears.

This movie made me think about all of the relationships with people that I have that I would not want to lose, and then I thought deeper into what would happen if one of these people died tomorrow. The thought of death scares me to this day, but it is more of a fear of the unknown rather than the idea of dying. We all see movies in which family members die and we watch as the family grieves, but I don't think we really put in the time to think about if that was us in the situation, we never really think that tragedies will happen to us, it is always someone else. But the reality is that this can happen at any time, in any moment our lives can change, and will we ever be ready for that moment? I sat their watching the movie thinking about a close friend dying and what I would want to say to them before they left. It helped me to realize how much I truly value the people I have in my life and I told myself from now on I would make sure that they all know that. I couldn't imagine losing a parent, or grandparent, a best friend or even just a friend I see occasionally. I value relationships so much that no matter who I lost, it would affect me greatly. Its crazy that having a tragedy happen is what gets us to realize what we value in life. It really is true that you don't know what you got till its gone, but I want to change that and make sure that I appreciate everything I have before it is ever taken from me.

This movie also had me thinking about relationships, in the movie the mom and dad loved each other so much and they had the cutest connection with one another. as i watched this movie I thought about my past relationships and how much they have affected me. Some being greater than others I realize that they are all practice for the guy that will change my life. And I realized that I cant wait for that to be me someday, I want to have a husband that cares for me as much as the man did for his wife in this movie. I always say that we are so young and we don't need to be committing to relationships, but this movie opened my eyes to the reality that a long term relationship is in the near future for a lot of us, some of those relationships resulting in marriage. I know that I am not ready to be married but I don't think it would hurt to have a good guy come into my life. I love seeing couples that are happily married and I love when you can tell how much they adore each other, and I really can't wait until the day that I am involved with a relationship like that. I am not the type to go searching for something, but if something came my way I wouldn't be against it.

The main point that I got from this movie was to value the relationships with the people that you love and to realize that a person can be taken away from you at any moment. Any one that is reading this that is a close friend I want you guys to know how much I love you as people and I am so glad that you are all in my life, and to anyone else I would suggest that you think about this same situation and who you want to tell that you love and appreciate. The people who we surround ourselves with are truly the things that bring us the most happiness in life.

- Taylor

Tuesday, January 24, 2012

I'm a Twin...but not really

My family and I get into an argument about whether me and Tyler are twins or not. and by that you may think I am making a joke about the fact that me and him are nothing alike and look nothing alike, but the real story is that we are test tube babies, in doctor terms invetro. For those of you that don't know what that means I will explain. My mom was unable to get pregnant so my parents paid a ridiculous amount of money to have the doctors make the children for them. This is when they take an egg from my mom and a sperm from my dad and get the egg fertilizes (usually more like 7-10) and then they replace the eggs back into my moms stomach and see which of the eggs will survive. The first time they tried none of the fertilized eggs survived. My parents were set on having kids so they gave it a second try, on the second trial 6 eggs got fertilized, this meaning that I could have had 5 siblings. And this is where i come to the conclusion that I am not a real twin.

In a usual twin setting, the egg either splits into two resulting in identical twins, or two eggs get fertilized at the same time giving you fraternal twins. My point being that this occasion was not a lucky experience for my mom as a usual twin situation would be, we were hand put inside her along with 4 other fertilized eggs, but Tyler and I were the lucky two that survived. I believe that is why we are so different because we are just normal siblings, not saying that all fraternal twins are alike, but I feel as if we would have had some more common qualities between each other. I may be wrong in this argument but I think I have a pretty valid point. My mom gets so mad when I say this to her because she thinks I'm being a bitch, but in all honesty we aren't the normal type of twin that is created. Yes we are two babies that were both born on the same day, but I think that there should be a little more that is needed to classify people as twins.

Going off on the twin subject, some people wish that they were a twin and they think "god that would just be so cool" NO. You can ask any twin and I am sure that they would say the same exact thing as me. If I post something on twitter that my brothers friends see, they tell him. Is that seriously necessary?! Do I go and tell your older sister what you post on twitter? NO because nobody gives a fuck. But why do people honestly think it is necessary to tell a twin sibling everything they hear about the other. Let me clue you in, I could honestly care less what Tyler does with his life unless 1) he is in trouble or 2) he is being rude to one of my friends. In all other situations I would ask you to refrain from telling me things you heard about him, and to stop telling him things that you hear about me. Yes we are the same age, yes we are in the same grade but that does not mean that we want to hear everything about the other person. Just like you want your life to be private, we do too! Just something to think about. Maybe people think its funny to get a reaction out of the other twin, but you don't know what goes on behind closed doors at my house because of the things that are said to my brother. If you don't know him well enough, ill clue you in that he tells my parents every single thing that he hears about me and yes I do usually get into trouble for it. Not putting myself above him, but I would say that I am the more successful one out of the both of us, and I believe that he does these things to take the spotlight off of him and to put it on me for once, to take me down and to make it look like I'm not that much better than him. We both have our strengths and our weaknesses and we do not need to be compared, but it is a very hard thing not to do being that we are in the same grade and going through the same transitions in life. But no matter what I will love Tyler with all my heart, Twin or not lol I say not but nobody agrees with me! You cant choose your family, but you can make sure that you give them all your love and cherish every moment you have with them for you don't know when they will be taken from you!

-Taylor

Love...

...does not exist in high school.

Maybe in a few cases, but nobody is mature enough to 1) know what love exactly is and 2) be able to find someone that truly meets their every need in a class of 500 or so people. There are SO many people in the world, why would you limit yourself to one of the first few people you had an interest in? I think dating in high school is necessary, you need to figure out what you want and don't want in a person and you get to also realize the things that you need to work on yourself to ensure a successful relationship. I believe that the people that you date in high school are practice for what is to come in the real world, but I don't believe that it the relationships you have should result in marriage. You should go out and date a bunch of different types of people to see who can make you the happiest, there is never a reason to settle for a person just because you think you were meant to be together forever. No matter who are you with, there is always someone better out there, even if you don't want to believe it. You will never have the best person and that is why it would be my choice to date around before entering a very serious relationship. In high school relationships all you do is ruin a friendship that you had built up with someone and that really isn't worth it in the end, unless you can still remain friends after which most people can't.

Tyler and I got into an argument recently about who's fault it is that high school relationships don't last. I said it is a mutual fault, but guys tell girls things just to get into their pants and in all honesty what girl isn't going to believe that her boyfriend loves her if he says that he does? Why would she assume it was a lie? Tyler says that it is the girl's fault because she believes everything the boy tells her, his exact words being "the girl is an idiot for believing all the bullshit the guy tells her". He agreed that guys say anything to get laid even if it means lying to a girl, and in most cases lying to many girls so that the boy has plenty of options. Tyler says girls are stupid and can be fooled easily, but why do guys take pride in that? They know what girls are looking for, a happy long lasting relationship, and yet they will lie to our faces just to lead us to believe that they are looking for the same thing, when in reality they just want to have sex. I can't get over how messed up that is. Guys seriously think that they are so tight because they have sex with so many girls, but do they ever take the time to think about how many girl's feelings they have hurt in the process? Probably not. In a girl's genetic make up she is made to look for a loving relationship, in a guys genetic make up they are made to spread their precious seed among the world. So how do these two things come together to make a relationship work, obviously one of the two in the relationship has to sacrifice. And I guess lying to a girl to make her believe you love her, just to get in her pants is the solution? That doesn't work for me, and it shouldn't for you either.
And I will wait until the day that I am proven otherwise.

-Taylor